Therefore I will block her path with thornbushes; I will wall her in so that she cannot find her way. She will chase after her lovers but not catch them; she will look for them but not find them. Hosea 2:6,7

Tonight I read chapter 7 in Captivating. It is about romance. How each woman longs to be romanced and passionately loved. The scriptures above were in that chapter. God will keep us from, better yet, He protects us from those things that try to separate us from Him. The main thing, yes, it is us. We often look for love, romance and passion from people and things that will never be able to fulfill us. There is a space in our hearts that can only be filled by God and His passionate love for us. " You are made for romance, and the only one who can offer it to you consistently and deeply is Jesus." (p.125) My heart was wounded as a young girl. This wound has never healed. This is what my wound has said to me: You are too needy. You are overwhelming. Because of your choices, you are less then others. Something else is always going to be more alluring than you. Search after search for someone to make that hurt go away has always ended making me feel worse than I started out. It is because I have looked to the wrong Lover. God holds all that can heal those wounds my heart has sustained. It is only when I run to Him and give my heart to Him, will I be able to find a love in another that I can truly enjoy for what it is and not what I need it to do for me. That is not how we heal our hearts. Others and their love can not heal those little girl wounds. I am a woman, and still feel like the little girl that is desperate for attention. I am ready to fall in love. I am ready to experience devotion and passion. To feel intimacy with my God. To begin healing my heart. To forgive and release anger for time lost.

God thank you for allowing me to see you. For giving me little glimpses of your heart towards me. For sunsets and the water. Stars and the music of birds singing in the morning. These are the most precious gifts that I could receive. May my heart longs for them and may it also give back to you. Thank you for aligning my heart with yours. Thank you for speaking to me and filling my soul with the Holy Spirit. Thank you for loving me with a passion that is just as desperate for me as I am for you. With out you I am lost. You are forever my true love. You have brought me to the desert to teach me of this kind of love. To show me how true love really lives within us. Thank you for being jealous and stealing me from those things that drew me farther from you. Thank you for continuing to teach me and for helping me grow in the relationships that mean the most to me. Thank you for allowing me to love more deeply than I ever have before.