I have turned a few corners in the last few months. I think some of my friends and family think that I am a little crazy, but it feels good to let go of "things". They are not what defines me. God defines me. I can always buy more things. I can't just reclaim my life when it is over. I used to be so intent on developing my personality and who I thought that I was. Until I let go of that picture, I will not be able to truly focus on who God wants me to be. I want His characteristics to shine through me. My desires only cloud that. I shared a little of what I was doing with a co-worker and she asked me if I wanted to be a monk..haha. We are slaves to the things around us. I have found it hard to put certain items in the boxes. Something as simple as a piece of pottery that a girlfriend had made for me for a birthday, I am finding it hard to let go of it. Do I really need it to remind me that she cares for me? When was the last time I even talked to her on the phone. Have I sent her a letter in the last few months? I want to know people. Not the things that remind me of them. I want conversations. I want to show love. I want to be part of life. I don't want to be surrounded by objects, I want to be surrounded by people. There will be things that I keep, but more in moderation. I want to find my true personality that God has crafted for me. This is my new adventure. Praise God for allowing us to seek Him out and to find that treasure that we all long for. A whole heart, a satisfied soul and a peaceful spirit. All because of Christ's sacrifice for us. I am not worthy of His affections and grace, but He gives them anyway. Tears well up and my heart overflows with the Holy Spirit.